Three months has passed since my life started crumbling down. Three months has passed since my mental health condition took everything away from me : my career, my master degree, my relationships with colleague and friends.
At first, I thought losing it all was easy. I thought it means I am finally free from all the stress I couldn’t handle on my career back then. I thought I finally got the chance to do anything I want, to pursue my passion and my dreams. Three months later, I realize I was wrong. It was not easy at all. Losing it all crushed me inside and out.
It took away my confidence. I began to think that I am destined to failure, like I have done so.
It took away my spirit. My health condition took away my courage to meet or communicate people, resulting in a lonely and depressed me.
It took away my passion. I get used to feeling depressed that I forget how to feel happy and passionate.
And the most dangerous of all, it took away my will to live. At the lowest point, I even prayed to God to take away my life.
But this is not the end. This is not the end at all.
Nowadays, I feel better than I used to. Even though I still have some problems, I rarely hear sounds in my head, which has been huge problems in the last year or so. I began to get better control of my mind and my body, although sometimes I still lose it.
But I am positive. I will get better. I will get stronger. I need to get better and stronger.
Here are a few things that keeps me positive and keeps my fighting spirit alive :
First. I am very grateful for the blessings that I have, which has descended from heaven in the form of endless support from family and friends. When I spent days lying uselessly in bed, I got families that brings me food and drinks. When I feel depressed, I got friends that cheer me up and put a smile in my dull face. I want to repay their kindness and I will not let their efforts be in vain.
Second. I have dreams. It’s time to reignite those dreams. Even though I have to start from the bottom again, even though I have experienced failure, even though I have lost a lot of time and effort previously, I have to rise up and start pursuing those dreams. For it was our dreams that makes us special.
Third, and the most important of all, is God.
I recently read this article saying that no business last forever. The article talks about “The Innovator’s Dillema”, in which Clayton Christensen talks about how a big company get too dependent on their cash-cow products and services, making them less innovative.
In the article, Facebook is said to be pivot-ing to another business concept and becoming a Bank instead. The explanation is very make sense that it is kinda creepy to hear.
The article inspired me to think, how we often become scared to start a business because we don’t think it is big enough. The fact is, if a successful business such as facebook needs innovation in business model, what about the not-so-successful?
The idea was to start. Start doing business, and we will meet customers, ideas will popped up, and we can always innovate our business model.
Always be open minded, it is crucial.
*Note : This post is in Bahasa Indonesia
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Heiho, peeps. Ysteven.com is back, and it has a new look with Flat User Interface!
I’ve been meaning to try designing a flat UI for a while, but I don’t have any time due to my job and all. Now that I’m resting at home to recover from my health condition, I have time to redesign Ysteven and experimenting with Flat UI at the same time.
Some things I learned during this experiment :
- If you are designing flat UI, avoid shadow. I find that #CCC ( light grey ) is already too bold.
- Typography is crucial in flat UI. Choose the wrong font, and the whole design is flawed.
- We spend more time configuring Typo than Layout.
What do you think of the new design? Is it too flat for you? Please let me know!
Hello, it’s been so long since my last post here. In fact, a lot has happened since my last update here : I got relieved from work because of my health problems, and Ive used that time to focus on recovery and developing a new blog called Bloginspirasi.com.
Aku mungkin punya seribu kelemahan dan sejuta masalah. Tetapi aku bersyukur karena aku memiliki satu Tuhan yang ada di sampingku saat aku menghadapi seluruh masalah tersebut.
It’s been so long since my last movie review, but today I feel like to be back on writing movie reviews so here it is : a review for a movie based on English’s fairy tale, “Jack the Giant Slayer”.